Bore

I haven’t been updating due to a couple of reasons.

But the main reason why I’m not updating that often now is ’cause school’s a bore and you can’t expect anything new and interesting to happen! Furthermore, my keyboard’s faulty now and I have to use an on-screen keyboard for some certain keys like “m , . /” which proves to be extremely annoying!

Anyway, I shan’t rant about this! I’ve got a couple of things to update about, one of which I found both hilarious and amazing!

1) I cut my hair SHORT! And I like it! (:

2) I realise there’s a new choir J1 guy with the same name as me! (That was the one which I found amusing and amazing all at the same time!)

3) I feel like dying in school now ’cause everything’s just so dull and boring! ):

4) School’s my second home now, much as I hate to admit this!

5) I can’t wait for Chinese New Year to come ’cause I really really need a break from school!

Lastly, I detest school and I feel so much angst today ’cause the whole school system is draining me out even though it’s just the second month of the year! ):

I just want OUT at times.

And this post isn’t the least bit coherrent ’cause I really hate using the on-screen keyboard together with the laptop’s keyboard! It kills whatever inspiration I have, I swear.

So I’m just going to end off here! Till then friends.

Get me out

I don’t know why but I keep thinking that tomorrow’s Friday when it’s only gonna be a Thursday! I can’t wait for weekends to come ’cause school’s been an utter bore! I have absolutely no words to describe how tiring and mundane it is to be in school these days! I can’t find any motivation, really.

Given that I’m taking my A levels this year, this really is a serious cause for concern and I know this shouldn’t be the right attitude! But despite everything, I just don’t feel the need, the urgency and the motivation behind everything I’m doing right now.

And it all boils down to the same question again. What is it I truly want in life?

I truly have no idea now. I’m just going with the flow, going through the motions each day, hoping that someday I can find that something that I truly want in life. I had several dreams and goals before, but none of which were concrete ones. They were just fleeting, ephemeral dreams.

I guess it’s the time of the year again. Every year, there’s bound to be some times like this. Times when I feel the lack of motivation to get me going, times when I just want to hide under my blankets for as long as it can be and times when I just want to live in my own little bubble and never get out of it. It’s times when I just want to be away and find my own little santuary.

On a side note, I didn’t realise till today that it’s already 3rd of February and that I’ve already embarked on a new month. It’s hard to believe that January has just passed me by like this! And it’s even harder to believe that a month has gone past and I have done everything else but studying.

Time just slipped by so unconciously. And before I know it, I would have done my A’s already. I really hope this month isn’t as bad as January. Let me have something that is at least worth the memories.

January’s been way too dull.

Alright.

I think this post is long enough to compensate for the lack of updates these days. Anyway, I’m cutting down on blogging since life really isn’t that worth the mention.

And with this, I’m out of here. Goodnight.

Revolution

I’m gonna sleep as soon as I finish updating here ’cause today’s been a really long day and I feel as though all my energy’s being sucked away from me. If you see me writing incoherrently or spewing rubbish along the way, that’s really ’cause I’m so drained I can’t even formulate a proper sentence.

Anyway, the J1s are coming in tomorrow and I’m pretty much excited to see them! Other than the fact that the canteen’s gonna be real crowded, I actually can’t wait to see how our new ‘10 batch is! And I can’t believe a year has just passed like this! A year back, I was still so nervous about going to a new college and now, I’m already a J2 graduating in less than a year’s time.

That’s really how short Jc life is. But short as it is, it’s still quite awesome if you get to make nice friends along the way and create wonderful memories together. Honestly, I wouldn’t have adapted to the environment that quickly if I hadn’t met really fantastic people.

Come to think of it, I’m really a blessed person. So I guess I ought to complain less from now onwards and learn to not take things for granted.

I’m determined to become a changed person! For the better of course!

Wish me the best!

Saturation point

Three tests in a day made me feel so nauseous. To worsen things, PE was horrible and I officially hate running, really. Why in the world must we run you tell me!? I enjoy doing sports, but running is just way out of my league. I think I looked like I was gonna faint anytime when I ran. Ugh, I gotta get my stamina back now. ):

Anyway, so I was saying, I had three tests today. Econs, Cse and GP. Can you imagine how saturated I was by the end of the day? I concluded that I should not study for tests ’cause every time I do, I don’t seem to pass! I could have spent more time sleeping than waking up early in the morning to do revision for Econs! What a waste of time seriously.

It was almost impossible to finish everything in time!

Oh well, I hope I don’t fare too badly in any case.

Moving on, after dismissal today, we helped out in the CCA recruitment video and lip sync to “I gotta feeling”. It was hilarious and embarrassing all at the same time when they were filming it. But I’ve got an uncanny feeling that the whole video will turn out successful.

Alright!

I guess I’m gonna sleep now and leave whatever work that’s left for tomorrow ’cause I’m really exhausted and it doesn’t help at all to do homework under such sleep-deprived condition. Waking up early isn’t as hard as enduring the tireness and trying to concentrate but to no avail right! This is the new theory that I’ve come up with over this few weeks. I work better in the morning.

Tata!

On the verge of pulling my hair out

If I ever become a teacher, I will make sure my students have a rejuvenating weekend instead of bombarding them with endless piles of homework and exhausting them even before the start of a new week.

Of course, I’m not saying that homework should be banned. Instead, I think it is more important to give the RIGHT amount of homework. Weekends really isn’t that long if you think about it. It’s just two days of break and it is only definite that you spend some time off doing some things you like.

I’m not sure if the way I think is right. But I’m sure I’m gonna have a long night today. I really hate thinking about how tired I would be tomorrow.

I need some coffee now.

Oh wait, I forgot coffee doesn’t help keep me awake. This is so fantastic, I swear.

Why!

This is so awesome. I can’t believe I forgot that there’s chem hydroxyl tutorial and an econs essay to write. Better still, both of them are to be handed up by tomorrow.

I’m so dead. So much for being elated thinking that I’m only left with vectors to deal with. How smart can I get seriously!

(Inserts infinite sad faces)

I don’t want to burn midnight oil today. I hate it when I have to sleep late and wake up darn early tomorrow. It’s at times like this I detest going to school. Especially when I’ve yet finished my endless pile of homework. Guess I’m gonna get my chem and econs done first before vectors. Vectors shall wait, given the fact that I have yet revised or understood anything from that chapter.

Kudos to myself, seriously. And thankfully for Kaiting did I remember I have still so much to do. I really was thankful I asked! I can’t imagine how horrid it would be to go into class tomorrow having realise I haven’t completed any homework which I was asked to do.

I’m now going back to that pile of endless work. Ugh. (Pulls hair)

Late!?

I can’t believe I was late for choir today! I can’t believe Xiuzhen has unknowingly passed on her bad habit to me either. It was horrifying to wake up at 9.15am when I’m supposed to wake up an hour before! It was even more horrifying to realise that I didn’t hear the alarm ring at all! What on world happened!?

I woke up to utter shock, I swear. Guess I was really tired over this entire week. This shall be the last time I’m gonna be late! I don’t want to have to pay a fine because of silly reasons like this. Seriously.

Okay, nuff said. I’m going off already. Byez.

PS/ Sorry for the lack of updates these days. Life hasn’t been all that worth the mention!

Habit

I hate it when I don’t seem to realise that I’m in J2 already and that I need to kick my bad habit of procrastinating away. ):

I end up always having too little time for work since I spend most of my time rotting away. It’s this part of me that I always wish I can change. But I have never gotten down to doing it really.

Which is essentially why I feel so upset with myself sometimes.

I feel so lackadaisical despite knowing it’s A levels this year. And despite knowing that I have very little time left, I still can’t get myself working. Sometimes, I think I’m insane to procrastinate even after knowing how dire consequences may be if I don’t do well for A levels.

Now, I don’t know why I’m even here blogging when I can be at my study desk revising for tomorrow’s chemistry test. See, it is at times like this I think I’m crazy.

Great. Nuff said. I really need to start revising for tomorrow’s Mcq test. Bye.

Happenings

I haven’t updated my blog in a week! And just so you know, I’ve been pretty busy ever since school started. The amount of work is piling up steadily and I can already feel myself struggling for help in almost every subject. I’m not kidding, I think I ought to start bucking up like NOW.

Anyway, the past week’s been way too eventful. Openhouse was awesome but almost insane with the amount of things I had to do! I’m thankful everything’s over and I can finally heave a sigh of relief! I’m so glad things have now gone back to how it was before. Mmm.

And openhouse was so much fun ’cause it felt like orientation all over again! I love the house spirit, and how we never fail to burst into cheers after an event. Eventually, it would always (and I mean always) end off with every one singing the college anthem. And people will begin to start shouting “no school, no school”. But just so you know, the no school issue never really did materialise.

Nonetheless, openhouse was mad fun and I did enjoy myself quite thoroughly during the mass dance. I love dancing to the beat and laughing at each other while trying to recall the steps for the mass dance. It’s just awesome.

Moving on, yesterday was Kaiting’s little birthday celebration at T1 rooftop. We talked (or rather shouted), played silly games and ended off ultimately with ceaseless camwhoring. Like I always say, it’s a girl’s thing to take endless photos. I think it just runs in our blood. Sorry if I’m generalising, but that’s what I think personally.

So that’s about it for now. I’m gonna post the pictures up soon enough when I have the time. Goodnight friends!

Ugh!

I hate it when hotmail decides to go against me every time I have important mails to read!

I’ve got some important openhouse details to look into right now, but hotmail refuses to cooperate with me and I’m so annoyed ’cause I’m afraid that it is an urgent mail.

And I think I said this a thousand and one time before. I really hate it when I can’t delete my mails. It’s as if a part of me is missing, I swear. I have this habit of clearing my mails no matter what. As long as I see mails from Facebook or Friendster, I’m inclined to delete them right away since they are mostly mails reminding me of the stuff happening on either websites.

It is especially irritating when things happen always at the wrong time.

Ugh! And I have yet finished my homework. One more essay to go and I’m gonna sleep no matter what. I’m awaiting death tomorrow. And I’m completely amazed by my heck-care attitude towards Math. I swear this has to change. I’m contemplating tuition soon enough if my Math doesn’t improve.

Yeah, you heard me. Tuition. The one and only thing that I never considered needed in my life ever since secondary school years. Yet, I think I’m in need of one very soon.

Hate to admit this fact, but I’m just gonna have to deal with it sooner or later. I don’t want to screw my A levels up and that’s for sure.

Got to get my homework done now. Goodnight folks.