Moved

I’ve moved. To where I started out from. Wp has been fun, but I just needed a change. I will come back again when I feel like it. Managing two blogs would be tough, but I’m sure I wouldn’t neglect wp.

For now though, I’ve gone back to my old blog. Be sure to find me there, but I’ve changed my link. I’m not gonna post my link here for I still want to keep my blog as private as can be. Ironic that I’m saying this since blogs are usually for all to see, but oh well that’s me for you.

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Just sometimes

I wish I understand myself a little better than this.

New

Looks like I’ve still got a long way to go till I become the person I inspire to be.

I’m gonna continue to work hard, and improve myself. Not just academic wise, but character wise too. I lack tact at times, and I don’t think before I say something. Sometimes I end up hurting people along the way without even knowing. Then I feel guilty, but it would be too late by then right?

Bad habits shall go.

I want to welcome a new start now.

Take a step

I feel like baking during the weekends. Haven’t baked since forever and I’m suddenly having this urge to do it tomorrow! I’m just afraid I don’t have time since I’m supposed to be revising through my work.

Anyway, I think I like revision better these days ’cause it helps me consolidate my learning and brush up on those weaker concepts. I see some hope in doing Math recently and although I didn’t manage to pass this time, I was still quite pleased I actually improved. I wonder if I’m being really optimistic, but I was telling my mum that since I can improve my 21 marks this time round, I’m sure I can improve another 21 marks when Prelims come. Of course, that comes with lotsa practice and sheer hardwork but I’m not afraid!

I’m beginning to feel hopeful again. And I’m happy I’m actually moving on. Sure, I could have done better for Mid years. Like a lot better than what I’m getting, but hey! I’m done dwelling upon the past. I know I’ve been out of sorts for quite a while, but right now, I’m finally back on track. With determination, I’m sure I can do well. In fact, every one can do well so long they are determined to do so right? (:

I found back that little fighting spirit within me to go against all odds. And I’m all good now!

“Not until we are lost do we begin to understand ourselves” Henry David Thoreau

Hi Ho

Hello. I think I’ve neglected my blog for a tad too long and I feel that I ought to write something in here. Ironically though, I don’t think I have much to say and I’m just here to make sure I haven’t lost touch with blogging yet.

Life in school has been mundane, and there’s barely anything to be excited over, unless you deem the collection of results as something excited of course. In my case however, I’m totally against the idea of getting back my results knowing how poor I’ve fared. Going through the answers during lectures ain’t helping much either ’cause it just makes me feel worse that I can’t even get my basic bookwork right.

Mid years’ a spoiler.

That aside, I think I need more money these days ’cause I’m officially broke and I need to practise abstinence. I should stop purchasing unnecessary things like clothes, seriously. I need to save up for super show 3 hehehe.

And I feel like learning Yoga too. I’m really unfit these days. I feel as though my immune system ain’t that great as before and I’m easily prone to stomachaches, headaches and whatnot recently. I’m gonna be more health conscious from now on!

Alright, I guess that’s all for now. I’m gonna do some work and sleep early tonight. Goodbye folks!~~

Better than awesome

Exams have never been so gruesomely long before.

And I’m glad it’s all freaking over now. You heard it! It is over! O-V-E-R!

Sorry but I just have to emphasise it ’cause you have no idea how tormenting it was to have exams for almost two weeks long and every day you come home, you just feel depressed ’cause there’s just so much waiting for you to revise. It’s not like I really bothered to revise thoroughly (sincere confession here, btw), especially after Friday, but still it was kinda depressing knowing that we are almost one of the last few to end our Mid years. Or maybe the last. I don’t really know. But point is, it was just so depressing and demoralising to have exams when you’re not even half prepared for it.

Now! I’m gonna have to do some mental prep before I get back my disastrous results. If I’m optimistic, I may pass some subjects. Well, I’m not sure which, but I do hope I have a chance in passing Chem and my H1 subjects.

Actually, I don’t think I have confidence in most of the subjects I sat for, but I’m just being really optimistic here. I think I shouldn’t get my hopes too high up there, but I just can’t help but hope for some kind of miracle to happen.

Yeah, I’m always hoping. For something’s that been done and cannot be undone. Pfft.

Anyway, school stuff aside, I’m gonna get some comfort food later, preferrably good ice-cream to compensate for the mental distress I had over the past few weeks or so. I can’t believe I actually dreamt of walking into the examination hall and then realising I have no idea how to do my Math paper at all.

Now, would you believe me that I was really under some mad stress?

I think what was stressful though, was the fact that I didn’t have the time to study thoroughly enough. And that’s why I gave up on trying to finish studying everything after last Friday. I was almost in the “Oh it’s not over yet? I thought it’s over already!” mood. What’s more unbelievable was that I actually watched a 16-episode drama within that few days of break. I wasn’t in the right mind, trust me.

Oh well! But everything’s over now and I don’t intend to go on about how I wasn’t in the right mind and all. I’m happy now and that’s just great.

Alright I need to rush off now ’cause I’m actually meeting Chua for ice-cream. Hehehe bye folks.

Inhales

I need to take a breather, reorganise my thoughts, and start afresh.

I’m gonna be fine. But for now, I just need some time.

I wonder

I guess I’ve never felt so demoralised before. I really wanted to pass Math this time but I guess it’s not gonna happen. I really hate it when I can’t do it even after trying so hard for it. It makes me feel as if everything’s not worth the try at all.

I still got paper 2 but if I can’t even do this, what makes me think that I can do the next one?

On another note, I’m not too sure how I did for Cse but I guess it was alright considering I didn’t study only until the very last hour. Even if I do fail (touch wood), I wouldn’t feel that much heartache as I would if I fail Math since I know that I didn’t put my effort into studying Cse.

Oh well. Mid years must have been the most screwed up one as compared to any other exams. Okay maybe just as screwed up as March Block. But that’s besides the point.

Point is, I feel so screwed. How?

And Emilyn gave us a reality check today. Two months more till Prelims and only seven weeks left till A’s after prelims. If I can’t do it now, can I do it within the next two months?

Sigh.

Math day

It’s math tomorrow. And I’m scared ’cause I really wanna pass this time round.

And that’s the reason why I’m neglecting my Cse. Which makes me even more afraid ’cause I’m actually neglecting Cse. I’d better do well for math tomorrow or else I might rlly cry.